Saturday, March 29, 2008

the peacefulness of nothing...

I've been thinking lately (working late nights makes u think a lot fyi.. ), people love what they're used to. Its a fact. An instinct. A feeling of safety and security. When we are used to things, we take it as it is and go through it quite easily with no worries. Its a great feeling and i myself likes it very much. For instance when we're with family, we feel safe and happy. No worries. We have our parents, siblings, cousins and the whole shebang. Its great and all.
The problem is, its actually bad. Firstly, when we feel secure, we often let our guard down. We cant think fast enough to cope with any sudden changes. We cant act properly according to logic and stuff in case of an abrupt change from that routine. Thats what makes us weak. Makes us cry when we lose a certain someone. Makes us feel weird when somebody does something out of the ordinary. When suddenly we have to do something we're not used to.
The other problem is, we often remember what we have and start to feel stuff. Like missing someone, missing a certain activity and other things. This makes us needy. And sometimes makes it hard to move on or accept that change.
I've been wondering of how to cope with these changes and also on how we should really react. I am still wondering. What would you do after this? when our studies end? when our relationships end? when our friends leave? when we stop working? when everything we know now ends?
The answer : i don't know.
Whatever it is i only that moving on is the best way. With the things we've learned from all the things before, it should be enough to get us through even if we're going forward without a single clue of whats in front of us. So my advise is to just be strong and move on. (should be hearing to my own advices now.)

Friday, March 7, 2008

the number game

its been awhile since my last post and it seems that its time to add another one to this new and empty blog. hehe. well it seems that although its spring break, time doesn't seem to get any longer even though there is nothing to do. sleeping seems to be taking more and more of my time these days.
Back to my topic, the number game. It seems to me nowadays everything comes down to the numbers, how long your last relationship was, how many broken bones you've had, how old you are (note: thanks to those who wished for my birthday!), how many A's you've got for your spm and the list goes on. Yes, i know it matters, but cant those stuff be personal? A thing that is just on a need to know basis... there is a reason for it to be called personal (mind your own business people! ) but still everything comes down to those numbers. Geez, i seem to be loosing in so many ways in the number game. But what the hell, no one knows my actual numbers.
on another note, another important thing involving numbers will be out soon; the general elections in malaysia and also the general election for the MSAV. to all the people involved, good luck and may the numbers favor those who really deserves it.